By McKenna Leavens
We all have that one person who’s always in the back of our mind. It may not be your ex or even someone you were serious with.
I know I have that person, I call him the one that got away.
When I first met this mystery guy I had just got out of a long term relationship and was not looking for anything serious.
My mind wasn’t focused on falling in love again, I was scared and hurt and honestly repulsed by the male species. BUT I was so intrigued by him that there was no way I couldn’t just go on one date.
Now going into this date I had no expectations, I honestly just thought “oh he’s just some cute guy, it’s not going anywhere, it’s JUST a date.”
Well, I was wrong.
We start talking and I swear it felt like I’ve known this guy for years, I was comfortable with him right away, he walked up to me and all my nerves just went away. I didn’t want the date to end… so it didn’t.
We were together all night and had such a great time, I felt a connection, something I honestly didn’t think I would ever feel again.
The next day I had to leave to go back to school, and I was so sad, leaving him was extremely difficult. Trust me, I know what you’re thinking I JUST frickin met this guy.
That drive back to school was the longest drive of my entire life, I couldn’t stop thinking about him and I hoped he felt the same way back.
I started to get scared because I already had feelings for a guy who I had known for a day. I honestly had no clue what to do or how to act.
This guy and I continued to talk for a couple of weeks and I felt myself gaining feelings for him, which caused me to pull away and build a wall.
As I pulled away he did too because he also didn’t want to get hurt. You can probably guess what happens next… my dumbass let him go.
I was distant, cold and he didn’t deserve that but letting myself feel something for someone scared the hell out of me.
We only talked for a month or so but he is constantly on my mind. I always think about how he’s doing and I know in my heart we probably could have had something really special.
He treated me how I’ve always wanted to be treated, and I keep settling for guys who do the bare minimum.
Why do I do that? Why do I leave people who want to stay? I know some of you can relate to this as well.
I think it’s easy sticking to what we know, sticking to what feels comfortable.
I was used to taking care of my partner, I didn’t know what it felt like to be taken care of. I had a guy right in front of me willing to do that and I ran the opposite direction.
I don’t want to feel comfortable anymore, I want someone who will challenge me and push me to be better.
I want someone who puts in just as much effort as I do and I had that for a little.
My mystery guy showed me what it’s like to be treated RIGHT, and I hope I can thank him for that one day.
Here’s to my one that got away, I hope I find you again.